I am a Searcher....

‎"I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand. We like to walk along the beach, we are drawn by the ocean, taken by its power, its unceasing motion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty. We like forests and mountains,, deserts and hidden rivers, and the lonely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as is our laughter. To share our sadness with one we love is perhaps as great a joy as we can know - unless it be to share our laughter. We searchers are ambitious only for life itself, for everything beautiful it can provide. Most of all we love and want to be loved. We want to live in a relationship that will not impede our wandering, nor prevent our search, nor lock us in prison walls; that will take us for what little we have to give. We do not want to prove ourselves to another or compete for love. For wanderers, dreamers, and lovers, for lonely men and women who dare to ask of life everything good and beautiful. It is for those who are too gentle to live among wolves.” ~James Kavanaugh


I realize more and more each day that this journey to health is not just about veggies.. It's about mind, body and spirit... I seek everyday.. I keep thinking that if I could only find the beginning of the path that things would begin to change.. I need to stop looking for the beginning of that path and look around me.. I'm already in the middle of it... 

Blogging

I've always wanted to journal and blog.. I'm not doing so good at it.. lol. Interesting.. maybe I think I have nothing to say or that others won't want to read my thoughts..

Quinoa

Showered... check
Bandana .... check
Drinking my Nettles Tea... check
Finally soaking some quinoa so it will sprout... check

welcome to the hippy life!!

What a crappy day...

Didn't go to work today. Slept most of the day. Terrible PMS. I will be so glad when this goes away! It seems the older I get the worse it gets. I was dizzy and just felt so weak and drained. And of course I beat myself up all day for not going to work.. sigh.. oh well.. tomorrow is a new day...

Top 15 Least & Most Contaminated Fruits, Vegetables | Natural Society

One of the first things I needed to know was "what" I was putting in my body. The list of bad things that have gone into and on my body are kinda scary. Looking at this list of most contaminated foods, I see many that I have just in the last few months added into my diet on a daily basis. Now I make sure to clean my fruits and veggies very well. And in keeping with my new healthy life style, I wanted to make sure that what I use to wash them with was safe too... and green. Gotta remember to take care of the planet too!! And I want to do this as cheaply as possible. Living a healthy lifestyle can really get expensive. So I found a recipe to make my veggie wash at home.

Fruit and Veggie wash:

1 cup of water

1 cup of white vinegar

2 tbsp baking soda

2 tbsp lemon juice

Make sure you mix this in a big container because when you mix the vinegar and baking soda it will fizz, expand and run all over the place! Once it stops fizzing you can put it in a clean spray bottle. I used an empty pine sol spray bottle (after I had cleaned it very very well) that I was going to put in the recycle bin! Spray your fruits and veggies with this wash and let sit for 15 mins then rinse well!

Top 15 Least & Most Contaminated Fruits, Vegetables | Natural Society:

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So it begins...

I have been unhealthy all my life... Physically, mentally and spiritually. I have been searching for a very long time for something... anything.. that would make me feel happy and whole.. I have read so much information on different ways to conquer my depression, ways to change how I think.. how I feel.. how I should eat blah blah blah.. lol. The amount of information out there just blows my mind and it's very overwhelming!! I'm still reading.. and searching.. and now it's time to start doing the work. So the journey begins. This is my journey to healthy, clean eating. A journey to my real self. A spiritual journey. And OMG.. an exercise journey (I hate to exercise!).

This will be a real journey. With many ups and downs. And lots of spelling mistakes.. lol. I wont sugar coat anything... I can't anyway cause I can't have sugar anymore... When I'm happy.. you will know. When I'm sad... you will know. And I will try very hard to stop using the ... (dots). I will share what works and what doesn't. This is all for me.. but it would be awesome if my journey helped someone else. So.. welcome to my ride.. until tomorrow...

Leanna